How can a girl so weak unleash a force so strong?

2011-12-31T02:03:00.000+08:00

I have forgotten why I have set this blog up in the first place because I seem to have lost that interest to ‘write’. But to think about it, this day, being the last of day of 2011, I feel like I should just have a go at this.

I’m almost done with Uni. (insyaAllah, I will graduate next year 2012) and crazy! Time does fly by so fast! It feels like I only entered Uni yesterday. Now with this, it is making me think. Is this really where I want to be? Am I really on the right track?

Oh, what bitter heart. I don’t know if this is even a good start. Doubts, insecurities, in doubt. Urgh really got to shake this feeling off.

So here is to another year. May it be bearable! J

Don’t sacrifice the good times for the bad.

F's Graduation day

2011-09-30T13:17:00.003+08:00

When time flies, it really flies, eh? Sometimes it makes you think whether what you have done within that span of years, enough or you could have put in more effort. Anyway...

Congratulations to Firdaus<3 on his GRADUATION DAY!!!

I just thought I'd let the private world of mine know how proud I am of you :)

July 15th

2011-07-17T00:07:00.002+08:00

You know the notion of how one can own everything in this world and still feel unhappy?

Today I woke up to my babygirl kissing my cheeks and hands, greeting me a very happy birthday. I woke up to a bunch of greetings, especially from the Mister. The word 'overwhelmed' would be an understatement. I felt beyond happy I doubt there's actually a specific word for it.

I also woke up to a message which read, You're getting old. Learn to forgive. I ignored it at first cause technically the message wasn't directed to me. However, as the hours passed on that day, I think it struck to me as a sign. I think it's something I need to learn. I just hope I'll actually find it in my heart to 'unleash the force'.

Anyway, it had been a wonderful day! Hello, world! I'm 24. Alhamdulillah. :-)

KB trip for nothing

2011-07-11T22:56:00.003+08:00

My cousin had his solemnization done yesterday in KB!! Lacking the experience of going down to the district itself made it sound like it was going to be a long day! Therefore, I had three choices clouding my mind:-

1. Tell my parents that we still had 'things' going on at BridEx;

2. Tell my parents that I was 'unfit' to attend due to my 'condition' (which was true); and

3. Just go with it, it's his big day after all.

After a lot of consideration, number 3 was chosen.

So, my sisters and I made our way to KB in convoy with my parents and other cousins. Unfortunately, due to a miscommunication and losing our way, we got separated from the group and were left to find the location on our own. We wasted a lot of time trying to locate the house and find the 'missing simpang' that by the time we reached there, people were already starting to go home. Totally explains the title, right??

But, nonetheless, I'd like to congratulate my cousin, Abg. Saifol on his nikah. It's about time for him to settle down hehe <3 <3

AND yes, it definitely was a long day yesterday!

Doubts.

2011-05-01T23:34:00.002+08:00

All that I have covered are, HSN, Inclusive Education, Peer Teaching, Collaboration & Co-operative teaching, Teacher's Attitudes and... that's about it... I am so dead. 2.1 you look so far away...

So today...

2010-12-31T12:10:00.004+08:00

...is the last day of 2010. How should I sum this year up? Hmm. Let's see.

I have found passion for rugby;

I have discovered that those people who seem to surround you comfortably will not be there for you forever;

I play the 'good-girl' role too much I need to wear it off;

I will always and always have that one person who will always always make me smile and happy despite of being broken;

I have learned that you need to be careful with the people around you because they go around your back and stab you like a true slut would;

When you click with an individual/individuals, it's not the period of time spent together that matters most, it's what you have shared together;

Even if I play the good girl role, I am still 'jahat' so it makes one wonder why am I nice in the first place? Hmm. ;

Teaching is probably what I really want to do;

It doesn't matter how much I try I find myself falling back into you (not that I am complaining).

I am not going to say it was a great year but on the other hand it wasn't the most horrible year anyway. What I am saying is that I am grateful that I am still alive and I get to see another year pass by. Alhamdulillah.

So, good bye 2010. You've taught me how to be a stronger person. Hello, 2011 :)

people change.

2010-10-16T15:23:00.002+08:00

The title says it all. People do change. Others may say that people do not change; it's one's perspectives of the person that do change but no, I beg to differ. It breaks my heart to learn that those people who you thought you could count on, who you thought would have your back no matter what, through thick and thin, those people who you thought will hold on to you forever, change. Just like that. And what breaks my heart even more is that I don't know you anymore.

We're just not the people who we used to be anymore.

And I hate myself for not being able to keep my promises. I'll make it up to you. This time it's for real. I am really sorry :(

Still waiting..

2010-10-09T14:11:00.004+08:00

Half of me can't wait for the exam to come because that would mean the end of assignments but it would also mean weeks of sleepless nights hence, half of me is dreading it. Come to think of it, it's only what, 5 weeks away? And it just felt like uni reopened last week. I have to say, by far, this is the worst semester for me. It's crazy, I swear. It's that crazy you feel like you just want to get married now and be a housewife. Well of course, that does not make the world better :P

I have come to realise that I like men who smell good. Really really good. I like men who spend a few seconds to reach out for that bottle and spray it on them not because they feel insecure about themselves but because they want to smell nice. It just adds more points to a guy, seriously! :D And I also have come to realise I like it when men know how to sing; more additional points. Oh and not to forget, know how to play a musical instrument, especially the guitar or the piano. I swear, nyummy. Handsomeness is just a bonus. Personality comes first. If the guy is handsome but personality wise sucks or does not know how to communicate, I find these guys very uninteresting. But then again, isn't that what all girls look for?

No, I am not looking forward to anything. I am just saying out of honesty. Good personality is a must. Everything else is just a bonus. And I like bonuses. It's like winning a prize ;P

Sorry. Bad picture. I just woke up bah and felt the need to blog :P

Oh I also like men who are able to express themselves through writing and provided that it's funny and entertaining. I am just saying :)

Untitled

2010-10-08T01:13:00.004+08:00

I... haven't been updating my blog properly. Partly because I have thought of abandoning it but here I am, I am back again. I was on the verge of changing my link, again, but then I remembered a friend saying that I always, always change my link so I guess for now, I'm going to stick to it.

So what have I been through so far? Well, I have been through a lot of things and I tell myself, again and again, if I did this once, I can do it again and there is no stopping to it. I may not be able to understand why when you adore someone so much you worship them so much but when things do not go your way, you swear. I do that and I am not denying it.

There are a lot of things in life you eventually regret doing but, I guess the notion about people shouldn't look back is right. You don't get anything from it except a burdened, heavy heart so, why do I do it? I guess one of these days I will find out.

I am in the process of healing, ignoring and moreover, just living life as it is. There are a lot of things I need to get rid of. My feelings, for instance. I need to get rid of this monstrous feeling of wanting to just bust someone's caps. I think I am getting there, though *pats self on the back* I also need to get rid of a heart-shaped balloon and a 2-year-old rose.

I swear I think I'm going crazy. I've build too many walls around me it is starting to annoy a hell lot of people including me. One of my friends says she wants to just knock my head. Another friend says I need to be less sarcastic. Another friend says I need to learn how to let go. My sister says I do not appreciate presences. I say, I am sorry for all the things you have gotten through in a very short time. I'll eventually learn, I guess :)

I want to feel again

2010-09-18T00:36:00.001+08:00

though it's hard for me to breathe

and even harder to believe

i know that one day i'm gonna find

i'm gonna be just fine

This is something you should find not hard doing because you're gone :)

Loving you is easy cause you're beautiful

2010-08-31T04:47:00.002+08:00

My most beautiful girl in the world, hands down.

What would I be without you? :) ♥♥

2010-06-25T22:05:00.003+08:00

You think I'm a psycho, but I know something that you don't know.

It'll definitely make your hair curl. ;)

My consideration

2010-06-17T15:12:00.002+08:00

I guess, one day, I will write about it. Then when I do, everyone will know what I really feel :)

NTS: Whatever it is, keep your chin up and smile! (*)

ikaw lang ng isa.

2010-06-06T00:24:00.003+08:00

I knew I wouldn't forget you

And so I went and let you blow my mind

Your sweet moonbeam

The smell of you in every single dream I dream

You are the one I have decided that's one of my kind.

No one can get in the way of what I'm feeling

darling, you are my only exception

I've got a tight grip of reality but I can't

let go of what's in front of me here.

wru

2010-05-28T14:46:00.002+08:00

People are crazy judgmental and for this reason you can never really be yourself around everyone else. They bring you down. Not me though. You don't like me that's entirely up to you. You get to decide on your own. You are either the one who I would welcome into my life with arms wide open, or, you are the lucky one to see my middle finger raised, especially for you.

But nonetheless, where are you when I need a shoulder? Dunno~ :)

You know what...

2010-05-26T20:29:00.002+08:00

...I should actually, honestly, really start writing on my TA blog right now but aku malas hantap so maybe, if aku rajin, I'll do it in school, tomorrow hee.

By far, I have no complaints about my kids in school. They are annoying and adorable at the same time. It's like I can never stay mad at them for so long because they always find a way to make me laugh. So far, I'm liking what I'm experiencing.

Although, I finally understand the whole school 'politics'. I do not want to be a part of your drama. I am so sorry but seriously, I am here for a reason and a reason only. I am not looking forward to saying goodbye to my kids, especially my nursery kids but if this continues, I do not think I would like to be around. I like a good conversation and I like making new friends, young or old, doesn't matter but I do not like to be dragged in a drama that I do not even know anything about.

And another thing. Pleaseeee lah. Like I said, I like making new friends but please, do not push me into doing something I do not want to do. Right now, I'll see your intentions as good so, no harm done :) you are getting on my last nerve though.

yours truly,

15.

2010-05-23T00:59:00.003+08:00

exhausted :)

Mr Smiley

2010-05-18T23:27:00.003+08:00

I was about to fall asleep (|--| this close) when my left hand decided to move wildly and I accidentally hit this one particular pillow next to me. Then a song came out from the pillow singing, always look on the bright side of life. It got me reminded on how and why I got it in the first place :)

Miss na miss kita pillowwwww.

I just realised that...

2010-04-27T10:47:00.004+08:00

...I get hurt easily. The littlest things can make me sad. I get annoyed easily. The littlest things can make me angry. But above those two, I also realised that I am very easy to please. The littlest things can make me smile. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. You decide.

six billion

2010-04-15T13:08:00.002+08:00

...six billion people in the world, six billion souls. All I need is one.

I'm a mess...

2010-04-06T23:00:00.000+08:00

...just because.

My semester's already fucked.

oblivion

2010-04-05T22:22:00.000+08:00

I know I am the last thing you wanna see, you wanna hear from, right now.

Happy birthday...

2010-03-25T00:05:00.003+08:00

...to the guy in the picture. :) Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki. nxbi! ♥

true blue, true colours?

2010-03-13T20:45:00.002+08:00

I really appreciate friendship. seriously. I do not bitch if people do not start first. But still, at the end of the day, I appreciate apologies because I believe no one is all that bad. At a point, you did like something about the person you became friends with. Although some things of course, just can't be tolerated.

Eh antah eh. Gila kali aku ani sudah.

Sama mata ku macam julinggggg :(

Hmmm :)

breathe slow

2010-03-02T20:18:00.002+08:00

Believe me you, it's taking everything to just put on a smile. :D

Dear agony..

2010-02-14T11:26:00.002+08:00

Just something I feel like posting today. mnmk.

Why do we...

2010-02-13T02:14:00.000+08:00

...act rashly when we're mad?

I should know better...

2010-02-13T01:14:00.002+08:00

...than to blog when I should really be finishing my work but I can't think right now.

There are a lot of things I have bottled up. I hate the fact that I am surrounded by lies. I hate people talking about me, about the people I care about. I have come to think that the reason is to pull us down. Why? I do not know.

People say I am scary that when I bitch I bitch like there is no tomorrow. But people do not know that the only reason why I BITCH is because they started it in the first place. LOOK! I AM NOT STUPID OKAY! ANYONE COULD HAVE FIGURED THAT OUT. So now you want to make me look like I am the bad person, it's up to you. If anyone fancies hearing my side of MY fucking story, I will gladly SPILL THE FUCKING BEANS!! But NO~ of course. You are never wrong, I am never right. So yes, have your fun. At least I know what's wrong and what's right.

And you. For what it's worth, above everything else, you are still the greatest thing that's happened.

P/s: JANGAN TAH KAN PERASAN THIS BLOG IS ABOUT YOU. PLEASE. THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND YOU. Fucking asshole.

In need of motivation

2010-02-02T22:19:00.002+08:00

I have lost hope, determination and most importantly, motivation.

Music, music, music. I guess when I have lost everything I believe in, songs are the only things I turn to for motivation. Why? Entah. But at the end of the day, after piling up all the motivation needed for myself, I lose it again. And then I question myself. Is it all worth it? Why do we fight when no one else is supporting? What's the whole point?

I guess, there are things that are just not worth the fight. I need to get that in my system. I need to get my mind out of the clouds of wonders. I need my motivation back. Where are you?

Hello again.

2010-01-27T23:38:00.003+08:00

It has been a few weeks since my last post and unfortunately that was not the last one. For the past few weeks my mind has been filled with a lot of things, things people have been saying, some of which I found out and wish I had not. And I also have been doing a lot of thinking. All in all, at the end of the day, all I can say is there are a lot of things in this world that should not happen. But then again we as humans have no power to take control over one's mind. I have been catching up with an old friend, a very good + close friend of mine and we were just talking about all the things there are possible to talk about. So here's what I think. Be careful, this is going to be a deep one.

R FOR RELATIONSHIP, R FOR RESPECT
One thing that I have learnt in life, mine at least, is that you should respect others. Respect what people think, like or dislike. So hence, when I want to please someone I respect their decisions and try as much as possible to avoid what would not please the other. So why would you want to go fooling around disrespecting others when you know it's neither welcomed nor desired? It'll just make me disrespect you.

B FOR BOUNDARIES
I believe there is a limit to everything. When you say you have a close friend, I say it is wrong to cross the boundaries between yourself and the so-called close friends. It is even wrong to be a whore, go around your friend's back and flirt with his/her other half. It just shows that you are cheap without you saying anything. Instead of doing that, why don't you just label your forehead with a "I-am-a-slut-touch-me-anytime-you-want" sign? This again, leads to lack of respect. Yes, it takes two to tango, but it takes only one to make a stupid move. A close friend is a close friend. Nothing more than that.

T FOR TRUST
Listening to just one side of the story is just plain stupid! I hate it when my close friends get hurt. There are two sides of every story so fucking listen to the both of them! Why do people get to decide for you? YOU ARE YOU! I do not believe anyone's got the right to stop you from doing what you want, unless it's a stupid decision like wanting to fuck up your life. The result may differ from your expectations but at least, you know you've tried. At least, you know you have put every effort in it. Else, you just don't think it's worth the fight. But of course, like I said, no one can take control over you. You're decision is in your hands. It is yours.

p/s: this post isn't all about me, just in case, because apparently ada orang suka terasa-rasa. But if terasa, means you're guilty of one of the above right?

but you are still my heartbeat.

Dear agony.

2010-01-07T01:06:00.004+08:00

This blog has finally come to an end...for now, that is, until I feel like posting something again. It was founded for a reason that has made a huge impact in my life. In a very good way.

I think using codes right now isn't necessary but I have never got the chance to tell you that for the past 2 years plus, I have never loved you any less cause it was always stronger each day. Believe me, you've taught me to be a better person than I was. You've always been my motivation and my determination. I love you. You'll always have me in your heart. You'll always have a piece of me. Always. You're the most sweetest and most handsomest (tahap maksima in my eyes. :)) person I have ever seen (maybe second after my dad), for the record.

Mahal na mahal kita.

I miss you already :(

pictures denied!

2009-12-27T00:55:00.004+08:00

I wanted to upload pictures that I took at empire earlier in facebook but I have been denied the pleasure of wasting my time for now. So, I have decided to post it up here since this blog has not been fed with pictures since forever. I was at the Empire earlier tonight and Princess and I decorated our own Gingerbread man. Kid stuff but I had fun.

This is what my boy would look like if he were a gingerbread man. If only I knew how to draw a PSP for the gingerbread man to play :P

Buffet everyday!

2009-12-26T13:31:00.002+08:00

I have a lot of things I wish I could have in this world. One of them is to have buffet every single day; for breakfast, lunch and dinner! Maybe that will make me gain some weight. But not for that reason only. I wanna have a variety of food I can choose from everytime I eat. Good food! That would be heaven. Hmmmm~ I guess I'll just have to go to a hotel and pamper myself, then? Stress mama ku memikirkan. I wonder, do the chefs working in hotels like Empire or Rizqun etc, get to have all those served too?

And I think the notion about mee goreng being fattening is not true. Look at my mom.

Sigh~ I am bored. December is moving too quickly.

I am on...

2009-12-04T23:50:00.002+08:00

...HOLIDAYS! For me, my third semester raced me to the end quickly. It makes me wonder what I have been doing for the past 3 months or so. I am through with exams for this semester and I have to say, the moment I ended my essay with a full stop on the 3rd, it was a relief. I can't convince myself that I did a good job though, because I simply didn't. sigh~ ah well, it is not the 'anticipating' moment yet.

It's December! :D Happy holidays, everyone!

I don't believe...

2009-11-07T14:33:00.000+08:00

...you check check my blog anymore.

Untitled.

2009-11-04T19:48:00.003+08:00

It seems like I only update this blog when I have something to complain about but that's only because at times you just feel like no one is there to listen to you anymore. nonsense, i know. And all my updates have been nonsense too.

I won't say I have been working my ass off but I have attempted to :P On the other hand, I have joined Rugby which is amazingly fun than the fun I expected to have. And this Sunday will be my first official match. Makes me nervous day by day.

I have exams just around the corner and tonight, I am determined to finish off 2 of my assignments that have been hanging on my shoulder just so I can start revising earlier. Hopefully this determination of mine will not fade away. Hee hee.

But first and foremost... I just got back from training and I need a shower. :D

Darn! Time does pass by so quickly, doesn't it?

How..

2009-10-17T22:18:00.001+08:00

..do you control yourself from being so.....cranky around this time of the month? Help?

I guess..

2009-10-16T09:19:00.000+08:00

..the best thing to do is to shut up.

Still the girl you knew a year plus ago :)

2009-09-25T12:51:00.002+08:00

I was reading some old messages that I find worth keeping and I love reading over and over again and made me realise how much I miss getting cute and cheesy messages (from you, obviously). I miss crossing the streets in Bandar complaining how full and lazy I was being to go back to the office. I remember a lot. And when I remember all this, I get smitten with it. Over and over again.

Raya is always special cause it always brings me back to the very first time we got acquainted. HEE HEE.

This is just something I have in mind

AB3-Kerinduan

2009-09-18T13:16:00.002+08:00

Constant as the stars above, always know that you are loved.

Rai, you gave me this song a couple months back and it's on repeat. It's your song now. I Miss and love you!

Al-Fatihah.

I get annoyed...

2009-08-29T13:31:00.003+08:00

...by those indonesian series that act as if they're Malaysians with the whole slangs and whatnots, it's just annoying! But after what I have seen in TV just few minutes ago, I do not think I will get annoyed by those series anymore. At home, we have access to the indon news 24hrs so basically we're always kept updated with what's happening over there. This one particular video that they showed in the news just now was just very, heartbreaking. The video showed a bunch of so-called Malaysian policemen punching, kicking, slapping an Indonesian man (for I do not know what reason pasal sakit hati ku melihatttt!) which I find very STUPID because they got his hands tied up and proved that some people are just barbaric! Urgh bari sakit hati banar-banar!

The news posted a website address where the video can be found so I decided to check the website out because I wanted to show the video to my sisters BUT......it turned out that the website has so many porn videos in it so malas tah ku kan browse. Aku lagi puasa. And then aku hairan, kenapa durang post arah the tv ah :s indakan durang yang salah. Which also got me thinking, kenapa inda saja aku YouTube? -_-"

Assalamualaikum.

Note to self.

2009-08-28T11:43:00.002+08:00

Please stop being lazy and do your work.

And please stop downloading songs!!

and

Selamat berpuasa :)

A couple of nights ago...

2009-08-13T15:04:00.006+08:00

...I felt like posting something but keadaan inda mengizinkan, the modem had to die on its own will. Inda pulang ku tahu why I'm telling that :P

I used to have a "soft spot" for rats. Macam, kalaw ya ada berjalan-jalan, inda jua ku mahu liat ya kena bunuh! But now, kalaw ku boleh squish and strangle the rat/mice that has been munching on my bar soap every single nightttttttt, I would get someone to squish it for me X) pasal sasak ku bah! Everytime I change to a new one, there would be a new mark. Gali jua ku kan pakai balik tu. Palui rat/mice/squirrel/musang nya!! So now I've changed to body wash, inda ya dapat gigit-gigit!

Therefore, I hate rats now! Benci ku! Gali kuuuu! You see what it's done?!

Jijik jua tuu!

Oh sama, aku mau aniiiiiiiii!! :(

I am...

2009-07-15T00:21:00.001+08:00

...the world's biggest disappointment! And happy birthday to me :-)

Maybe I am getting old and forgetful...

2009-07-14T14:40:00.003+08:00

...because I actually forgot that tomorrow is my birthday! How that happened?!! Heh! But I am happy because I gained 0.5kg. It's an improvement ;) and I am determined to gain 5kgs at least by November! It's just that everyone's so determined to lose weight by November so I thought, I might as well be "in the club" even though I've an "odd" goal!

And I am actually thinking of changing the address of this blog, although I know I hardly update.

You're too sweet :) mahal kita!

I guess...

2009-06-17T13:39:00.003+08:00

...I will smile. Just for you :)

Despite of every little thing that tends to push me down (oh no emo alert!!), yesterday was actually a good day to smile! I am going to say that I am proud of myself, not so much but I guess I deserve to be. I know I could've done better but it also could've been worst so I am very grateful. I just hope it'll keep up!

Thank you everyone for the congratulatory messages - macam manang award saja - but I think for once I actually made the important people in my life proud. And of course, I am proud of you too :)

2 sems down, 6 more to go. This shouldn't be able to feel this ride, right?

like a flash

2009-06-13T14:16:00.000+08:00

what a crazy month.

knock me down

2009-06-02T23:04:00.001+08:00

sɒltɪ pʌpkɒn wɑzən θə sɑɪm wɪðɑʊt jʊ.

It's not like...

2009-05-17T10:41:00.000+08:00

...I have powers in my hands... no rights to speak my mind.

2009-05-15T13:58:00.000+08:00

I guess I built my castle too high.

2009-05-13T14:44:00.000+08:00

All I am asking for right now is strength.

Going psycho with psychology

2009-05-02T23:03:00.002+08:00

I've said a million times before that I have the memory of a goldfish and this was just recently proven while I was revising my Psycho notes. Here's what I've found:

Short-Term Memory

Capacity: Limited (tick)
Duration: Short. Approximately 5-20 seconds (tick)

So me :( hahaha. Wait. I've kind of found a solution to this too. PAY ATTENTION!

I may not make sense but wish me luck for my exam which starts on the 4th! And thanks in advanced (if you do wish me luck :P)

Gonna be on a "hiatus" again! HA HA!

My boy.

2009-03-25T23:11:00.002+08:00

I may come in last, blog-wise, to wish you a happy birthday but it's not 12 so it's not over yet. And this post may not be as sweet but I still hope you had a blast. Well, of course you did. You have all the wonderful friends in the world and I am happy for you.

Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki. Amin.
I love you.

Happy 21st Birthday.

New link

2009-03-22T09:12:00.006+08:00

I have just added a new link. I know, not much of a big deal but I've been meaning to add the link ages ago but I have just been forgetting quite a lot :P (don't blame a person who has the memory of a goldfish! hehe)

Seriously! A site that needs to be checked out! Guaranteed to make you drool at every picture :P well, at least that's what it does to me.

Check it out! The Self Inspired Chef! <-- click on!!! :D or just click on the link that's under PHA! Obviously the one with the chef thingy on it :P

and lastly...................................Enjoy DROOLING ;)

you ah why you like this?

2009-03-11T22:44:00.001+08:00

I is like to talk like this because I is already sakit kepala talking proper english.

Comprehende?

Gracias.

sakit kepala punya pasal

2009-03-05T01:34:00.004+08:00

Aku was going through Aa's blog skali aku nampak ani macam siuk! Sakit kepala ku kan menghabiskan psychology ah! -_-

1) Say you marry the last person you texted, what's your last name?
= I think he mentioned Ronaldoze? Hahaha.

2) When's the last time you fell asleep watching a movie?
= Uhhhh. Last night. Bukan pulang movie :P

3) Are any of your texts in your inbox locked?
= Yeahuh.

4) Is there one person that you'll always have feelings for?
= Ummm ex boyfriends wise or dead people wise. If exs wise, nada.

5) How many cell phones have you had in your life?
= Uhhh 3 kali.

6) What's the last thing you laughed really hard over?
= Cousin ku gila menyumpah orang di padang tadi time meliat DPMM main! Orrrr was it few days ago hehehe

7) When was the last time you were told you were cute?
= Uhhh inda ku ingat.

8) What was the last drink you had?
= A-yer~

9) Who called you first this morning?
= no morning calls today

10) Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
= Inda. I went to sleep lalah mode.

11) How long can you go without your phone?
= depends
12) Were you happy when you woke up today?
= of course :-)

13) If you could go back in time, how far back would you go?
= Umm they say we're not supposed to mourn for the dead so I do not tink I would go back in time. Awuuu kill joy aku ani.

14) Are you the youngest person living in your house?
= No ho ho.

15) Have you ever quoted a line from a movie?
= Umm not that I remember. WAIT! Ada ada ada! From Ip man, part when he said it's not that he's afraid of his wise but it's "respecting my wife". ESEH! or something around that line lah.

16) Do you like candy corn?
= Nopes.

17) Did you ever want to be a lawyer?
= unfortunately. Sekali dulu ku liat bosses ku semua stress I think I'll skip. Not like I have a choice anyway.

18) If there were no letters on the keys on your keyboard could you still type?
= Yeah!

19) Do you have a bad temper?
= seasonal.

20) Do you still speak to any of your classmates from elementary school?
= ummm..

21) Do you remember the first rated-R movie you saw?
= rated R ani apa?

22) What is one thing you spend way too much money on?
= I am not so sure :S

23) Do you believe that there's good in everybody?
= there is good in everybody. Except Bush, barangkali hehe.

24) What TV show should never stop running?
= FRIENDS!!

25) Who was the last person you talked to in person?
= mi sister.

26) In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
= I zunno :S

27) Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
= Umm inda. I wish someone was here right now though hehe.

28) Look in your inbox in your phone, who are all the people you have texts from?
= From mi bebeh and one from mi mami

29) What are you drinking right now?
= I'm constantly swallowing my saliva?

30) What kind of shirt are you wearing?
= Baju tidur.

31) Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
= ni, awal ani :)

32) Would you be able to tell someone you love them, even if you didn't feel it?
= never, even though pernah hahaha.

33) What color are your eyes?
= typical Asian colour. Dark brown. Bukan perasan. Yang bana nya nieh~

34) Do you wear your seat belt in the car?
= Depends if the car annoying berbunyi :P but most of the time, yeah hehe. Safety first! *tell-a-friend*

35) Will you talk to someone on the phone tonight?
= I do not know if you consider now on the phone if you get what I mean.

36) Have you ever kissed someone that smokes?
= tunggu. aku check dulu siapa membaca ni!

37) Is there someone in your life you don't want in it?
= I can actually write a hell lot of shit for this question but naleh ku so long story cut short *chop* ummmm nada kali.

ABIS CHA?!

ole ole ole ole~

Sallydoll.

2009-02-28T18:00:00.002+08:00

Thank god for a Sunday tomorrow. I think i might actually do a little catching up with my room. Cleaning it that is. It's getting on my last nerve sudah. So... tomorrow's plan is to:

1. do my laundry
2. clean my room.
3. clean my toilet.
4. BARU TAH KU MANDI! Sal I do not like the idea of getting sweaty again after ku mandi therefore, mandi comes later hehehe.

Other than that, no plans yet. I doubt ada.

Looks like there won't be much of a 'holiday' for me. I've got a pile of assignments to do for March and Monday kami skulah. Awal lagi ku :(

Finally got to meet up with my Sallydoll! Inda jua kau berisi tuu. Macam biasaaa juaa. Banar! :D

Anddddd... boyfriend ku kiyut! Hee x) bye!

Warning! Content very cheesy! =P

2009-02-14T22:43:00.005+08:00

This post stands on its own for only and non other than my boyfriend :) (who is already asleep by now by the way -_-)

Why do people smile when no one's smiling?
It's cause they're thinking of someone they're loving.
I've got the sweetest love, there ain't nothing sweeter.
Nothing can beat this :)

15 things about my boyfriend.

1. He's the cutest.
2. He sings the best
3. I still think he looks hot even when he sweats from playing football
4. He's a bit too cranky ;P
5. He's charming when he's really cheesy.
6. He's the sweetest man on earth, after my dad :)
7. He has his own ways with his words.
8. He has weird taste in girls (haha yes, I am weird :P)
9. He's cute when he sleeps.
10. He doesn't snore.
11. He makes cute noises when he sleeps.
12. He smokes too much -_-
13. He drives like he owns the road :P
14. He cracks me with his jokes.
15. and most of all he's my lifesaver :)

I could go on and on and on and on and on writing this list but I'll stop here.

I love you Baby :) So much and more. Happy one year anniversary :)

what would your flavour be, miss?

2009-02-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

5 days left and tonight, it tastes like orange.

-

2009-02-06T22:33:00.002+08:00

I do not think you quite know how you made me feel today. Then again what I say doesn't matter to anyone anyway.

"Yay!"

pfft.

2009-02-01T00:08:00.002+08:00

I think it's so stupid how you think you are the better person. Really stupid.

2009-01-26T11:18:00.003+08:00

They say that it is not good to bottle things up but is it healthy to pick a fight?

Gila. My chest is half tanned! And my face is so red! But yesterday was worst. They're lighter today. Suka ku liat lain-lain colour di badan ku ah. Heh.

Confusion at Berakas roundabt.

2009-01-20T22:41:00.004+08:00

I do not know whether putting traffic lights at roundabouts is a good thing or not. Awal-awal macam bagus pulang idea atu.. Macam but then tadi I got confused. Berabis! I believe when the light turns Red it means drivers have to stop. So, thats what I did. I stopped! Ragu-ragu pulang ku tu tapi miah (merah) kali ah when all of a sudden the car behind me honked me! Seeing that no one had those yellowtags where it says "honk if you think I am cute", I assumed it was for me. Oh hell yes it was! Bangang wah orang belakang ku punya mua -_-" So~ yeah! Inda ku pulang nervous oleh nya but the traffic light sure made me look like I just learned how to drive. Puas hati nya.

Actually, I shared that just for the sake of updating this what seems to be useless blog pulang.

Oh, and it's not actually TOO LATE to wish everyone a "belated" Happy New Year, Right? :P

2008-12-26T15:32:00.000+08:00

"I'm burning"

i love rock n roll. err yeah.

2008-12-17T22:07:00.002+08:00

I know with the holidays on, almost everyone's been complaining about how boring it is that we have absolutely nothing to do. I complained too, at first that is. But then I started to enjoy being around the person I love that I do not really get to spend most of my day with during school days so for me, the holidays have been great. Waking up late is great. And I am not looking forward to going back to school, for now :P I'm going to enjoy this while it lasts because I know, the next thing I know, esuk skulah cha balik. Hmmm.

So let's see. Twilight wasn't the bomb. I realise that I am very hot tempered. I get annoyed easily. And I bottle things up.

But then again, what else is new with me?

Dementor

2008-12-16T19:44:00.002+08:00

A dementor kissed me last night and sucked all my happiness for today.

I felt like sh*t.

I felt like scratching someone's face.

I felt like beating the hell out of someone.

Factor there is, felt.

Felt.

Urgh.

number of the day

2008-12-14T13:32:00.003+08:00

count the hearts.

j mpwf zpv npsf uibo 10 ifbsut.

:)

Not tagging anyone.

2008-12-02T19:16:00.005+08:00

Right. I owe 2 people... erm... tag posts? Haha. Hmm~

Lilah.

1) Write your full name with your elbow.
2) No backspacing.
3) Tag 10 people to do this.
xdsk sazaIKUJDCFah b pghb bhhj ahgbmnaSX
p;ikn kidref p;alomolki ahnmAdf

Yay! Proves I am normal! I can't type properly with my elbow! :D atau elbow ku kali basar. HAA~

And here comes the other tag for Reeve-O
Pictures pictures pictures... -_-"

Why do you blog?

The age of my next birthday:

The place i'd like to travel:

A favourite place:

A favourite thing:

A favourite food:

Favourite Colour:

The city that i live in:

A nickname i had:

College major:

Name of first and only love:

&

A bad habit:

A hobby:

Current wish list (max 3 items) :

I am not tagging anyone. Malas ku :P do it if you feel like it.

p/s: darnit! I AM BORED!! -_-

9 ;)

2008-11-14T22:11:00.003+08:00

Inda cukup paper di dunia to write you how much you mean to me...
Inda cukup space in the computer to express how much I love you :)
Keluar screen karang :P

Mahal na mahal kita :)

2008-11-13T17:55:00.001+08:00

So what do you want me to say?

How do you expect me to feel?

What do you want me to do?

Hard to jaga hati orang aye when you can't even jaga your own hati.

wow

2008-11-10T21:06:00.001+08:00

You want to know how many butterflies I have caught since I met you?

krikik. krikik. krikik.

Random thoughts in the middle of the night.

2008-11-10T00:24:00.002+08:00

I do not understand why when it comes to people's problems, it is THAT easy to say that they are better than that. That they are stronger than they know. That they deserve better. And when it comes to us, it is hard to stay strong. It is even harder to pull yourself together. And when you have gone through that phase, you look back and think, buduh jua aku atu ah.

I believe that if anything bad happens, it means that something better, WAY better is coming your way. I mean, you can't have all the good things in the world, can you?

But what about those who have found something as good, but is still not satisfied? Who still looks back. (NO I do not look back to my past) but what about those people? Are you saying that we are taking what we have now for granted?

If final choices are made, what can we really do about it?

I am happy with the choices I have made. I have never been happier.

Relax. Better things are coming your way. Easy for me to say.

I am really happy. Are you?

Tagged

2008-11-07T16:50:00.000+08:00

1. Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right now.
2. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair... just take a picture.
3. Post that picture with NO editing.
4. Post these instruction with your picture.
5. Tag 5 people to do this.

Haha atu chawiiiii.

I'm tagging...

1. My boy (YOU HAVE GOT TO DO THIS!)
2. TYX (on demand) btw, that picture is for you tarus ;p
3. KaJoji sal ya sunung
4. Eva
5. Ammar sal ya vain. Haha.

Hello~?

2008-10-30T23:04:00.000+08:00

It's like I only post when I have got something to talk about (more like something to complain about :P) I am aware that I haven't posted something decent that I actually do not see the whole point of having a blog. But whoever said that a blog is an official online diary?

Whatever.

Anyway, maigadz, time flies by so fast that this whole thing is actually coming to its first end. Very fast. And it's actually freaking me out. It makes one think about how you have done so far. And instead of making what is already ugly better, I am here, blogging my night away. So not nice.

Oh, hello Dr. Sidek Sigaraga. This 3rd assignment you have set for me is totally giving me a mental block. How this? Helep? Anyone? Hmm.

Alright! Let's start panicking! Altogether now, one.. two.. three.. HOMAIGATZ!

piece of my mind

2008-10-29T00:17:00.000+08:00

Malam-malamku bagai
malam seribu bintang
yang terbentang di angkasa bila kau di sini.

Birthday Birthday!

2008-10-27T00:11:00.001+08:00

A very Happy Birthday to my girl's monkey!!! :D

I swear this picture is lawa ;)

and thank you for a wonderful night. ilysm x)

2008-10-24T19:36:00.000+08:00

Tell me everything is going to be okay.

2008-10-24T12:34:00.000+08:00

!@#$%^&*&^%$#@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@#$%^&*(*&^%$#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

breathe

2008-10-16T02:12:00.000+08:00

I hate the slow connection it's so annoying! It takes ages just to open a website. It's been annoying since this afternoon! Sasak ku. And it's 2:20am and i really want to sleep but i cant sleep but i really want to but i just cant but i am tired and i really want to rest but i just cant and class starts at 8 later and I CANT SLEEP! and aku lapar but aku malas kan turun but aku lapar but aku malas kan turun pasal aku mau tidur tapi aku inda dapat tidur because i just cant and i can go on alllll night just typing this down.

ok kau? aku ok eh. kau? ok eh. kau? aku ok eh.

anyway, cut the crap. Aku iski sikit pasal I finished my work, unlike someone, yetah barangkali i cant sleep ani ah. but i was really expecting the moment i finish my work, i'd drag myself to the toilet, brush my teeth, put on my retainers and throw myself on the bed and meet my boyfriend in Rome. Immediately. Tapi he has long 'snored' his boat alone and I am still waiting for the next one to catch up with him.

Oh my, my tummy just grumbled.

homaigatz i have got to get some sleep.

pencil pindik.

2008-10-08T23:16:00.000+08:00

I picked Princess up from school today and as usual, I would ask how school was. Then she would either answer it was fun or it was boring ("nyanyi saja todayy"). Today was a different case though. This afternoon she answered, "Kunmeh! My friend said kalaw colour pencil shorter than your jari bedusa tu". Does it ring any bell? Ingat kamu the notion dulu that you're not supposed to have any types of pencils that is shorter than your pinky? Ada maseh rupanyaaaa. Pasal apa tu ah? Inda pulang bedusaaa but there was some supersticious thing going on about it, I can't remember. The boy's answer was, this is why we have mechanical pencils now. Hmm. Anyone?

Okay! It is back to thinking about professional development for me.

Good night everyone.
Sleep tight, my love.

selamat hari raya

2008-10-03T13:35:00.000+08:00

Selamat hari raya to everyone who actually reads my blog (those who i can count on both my fingers ;p)

I have to say my first raya was great. It was a bit sad though due to Anis's absence but the sister was a sub for me to bully so it's all good. (hahaha nadawah Nis. I'd still bully you.) We just went to one place which was Ibu's house only and stayed there till like 4 plus, makan non-stop! Siuk!!

Apart from Anis being in UK, this year's raya too is a bit different because when I actually think about it, I've never really raya-ed with a guy I have mutual feelings with. Which gives me the chance to say, aku kan beraya (officially) with the boyfriend this yearrrrrrr. One of the reason why I am really eager about this raya :D and I seriously seriously can't wait.

And I am still waiting for your picture alone in cara melayu. I love you :)

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin, everyone! My sincere apologies.

♥♥

cuti

2008-09-21T13:18:00.000+08:00

I wanted to go to kubur today but unfortunately inda kena izinkan so hopefully I'd still have time to go last few days before bulan Ramadhan habis.

I think there are a few things I need to clear up here. My boyfriend is skinny. Inda pulang berabis but still considerably skinny that I think I look bigger than he does. But I still love him either way cause him being skinny doesn't matter to me because he loves me and he takes me for who I am. And I love him too. I do not know if this is where the notion "love is blind" comes in but, who cares how my boyfriend looks like? Who cares if he's skinny. Who cares if he's fat? Who cares if he's too tall? Who cares if he's too young or if he's too old. Who cares if he's too dark or too fair? Who cares if he has got a very ugly past? Who cares if I can do better? Who fucking cares?? The only think that should be of your concern is that he makes me happy. Yes, he does make me happy. Like no other. Yes, aku boleh marah.

Actually, I woke up this morning feeling rather semangat to do my supposedly-got-it-started-last-few-weeks work only to find that I lost my book. Great. So, I thought of staring with my LC then. Oh yeah, lupa ku. I was supposed to meet the lecturer yesterday cause ada yang ku inda faham but she wasn't in. SO, by now, really, semangat ku sudah hilang.

Hmm.. I actually miss going to Bandar~

From me to you

2008-09-21T00:52:00.000+08:00

No offense? Offended.

Next time you might want to think before you actually say something.

It is not that I have anything against you. I was just trying to point out things you should consider before you let words out of your mouth.

Oh, by the way, no offense :)

Ramadhan

2008-09-02T19:50:00.000+08:00

First day of puasa and Alhamdulillah it went smoothly :) Would just like to take this opportunity to wish each and everyone who actually reads this a Happy Ramadhan and Selamat berpuasa.

That's about it, actually =P

Assalamualaikum.

2008-08-28T19:12:00.000+08:00

If I could I would write you a letter. I would put all kind of things in it just for you to read. I would tell you that things are going well with me. I would tell you how the boyfriend is so amazing (and would also insist you should meet him) and how your friends/brothers are also doing well. I would tell you to not worry about a thing here because seriously everything is going fine. I hear one of our friends came to visit you the other day. I hope everything went well and I hope, I really hope that would help you even a bit. I wanted to visit you but I haven't got the time. I am so sorry. But insyaAllah, I will visit you soon.

I also want to tell you that I miss you. We all miss you.

When are you going to visit me again?

Assalammualaikum.

2008-08-23T17:43:00.000+08:00

15 weird things/habits/little known facts about me.

1. I love smelling my boyfriend's armpit.

2. I do not eat the breast part of a chicken.

3. I do not eat durian

4. I do not speak tagalog.

5. I like to get the skin from my boyfriend's chicken :D

6. I enjoy watching Indon series. Not those dramatic ones they show on Astro. Those "diambil dari cerita benar" ones with black magic and monsters.

7. I love playing with Princess's fat chummy!

8. I had to blanket I cannot sleep without. Now kami cerai sudah di atas my mom's order :(

9. I want to learn how to cook

10. I like to eat a lot!

11. I like Salwa's.. arr.. apatu? Tiramisu? sia sia pun.

12. I like singing like crazy in the car with Princess and my boyfriend.

13. I am taller than my mom.

14. I can't stand being quiet. I like to talk. When everything gets quiet, it's like something is up. I bug the person who is always next to me. Which is normally my boyfriend. Sometimes I think kalau boleh disumbatnya mulutku ani, disumbatnya sudah ;P If he doesn't wish for that, well, my parents do heheh.

15. This is me. Gahaha. :D

thanks Sallydoll~ lain kali kalaw kau balek brunei, make sound-sound. hee.

Oh and by the way, I am tagging.. Hmm..

- Mr. Firdaus Razali
- Amsyar.
- My sister, Sunug :P
- Reeve
- lilah.

:)

2008-08-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

... Half a year ...

Nothing beats being able to spend the night with you :)

Mahal na mahal kita :)

and the award goes to..

2008-08-12T22:56:00.000+08:00

I won a couple of awards today for being..
(awards I am not proud of...)

1. the worst girlfriend in the world.
2. the most bangang student in ICT.

Seriously! I do not know a thing about ICT except that it stands for Ice Cream Truck. And an itsy bitsy idea of why we have to take it. Mhmm. Great, no? No. Actually it is not so great. It is not great at all. Bengang wah ku ni. But what do they say? It's only the 2nd week so it is still safe. Or so I hope. I really hope everything goes well.

I was talking to AMal the other day and she was saying about she is a stalker in vain cause I hardly update my blog anyway soooo hee here's an update for you babe. If you are reading this, lastah hangout. Lama sdh inda jumpaaa.

So update, update, update. Hmm. I think everyone knows that I have a wonderful boyfriend. At least I think so :) and the new friends I have made over the past 2 weeks are great with a capital G! Banar. And I hope I will not change my perspective HEE.

Whatelse? Hrmm. So far, other than being a selfish girlfriend, I guess everything is still the same :)

A friend asked a weird question. What is the difference between love and passion?
I do not want to answer that pasal aher sudah and I wanna get this post done and over with :P but I think, I think ah, love is not love without passion. Yes, crappy answer. Totally not making sense at all. But if you are in love, I think you should know what I mean. Hmm. Nanti tah ku elaborate. Sakit kepala ku.

You know you mean so much to me. You know you are my everything. You know I love you so. I love you with a passion. I love you so much and more.

older, again.

2008-07-18T21:09:00.000+08:00

You know when you turn 21 it is believed that your birthday celebration should be "grand". Me? My idea of having a really good time is to spend my family and the boy :) so you can count me out. I mean it would be really great kali but yeah mine was great enough :) it was really amazing :)

It is mandatory to consume a large amount of food to mark your past year of aging. And after a lot of complaining and tummy-grumblings, I did consume a large amount of food.

All in all, my birthday was really great :) realllyyyyyy great :) .

And thanks to everyone who wished me a very happy birthday through msn, the messages, blogs. Thank you. Very much. And I have a lava lamp :D :D aku suka :)

And luck has been on my side. Good things/news didn't decide to only make me happy on my birthday. According to Neji, someone invited me to their BBQ :) aku happy berabis upon hearing that but made me really nervous pulang but still :) kambang :) :)

and what more...

...Ahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. IT IS CONFIRMED. LAST DAY ON SATURDAY!!!!! which is tomorrow. reason to why i am so iski :D been counting the days and the day is finally here :D wah! Say goodbye to seeing Bandar everyday now :) Bye Bandar!! Surely gonna miss everything but for now, say hello to the Bummer in me ;D

Ahhhh.. Nice :)

140708

2008-07-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

if you're ever wondering
about the way I'm feeling
babyboy there ain't no question
just to be around you is a blessing

Happy 5 months ;) ily.
both of you are a bliss. i love you so much.

lunch time

2008-07-10T12:27:00.000+08:00

For every step you take, there is always a line in front of you that before you cross it, you think. You think about the consequences you would have to face later on for crossing that line. You think about it, if it is worth it or not. And if your dramatic life can deal with it, you cross it. If not, then do not cross. Simple as that. (I swear this is more effective spoken aloud :P)

For the past 6 months I do not think I have crossed any lines that could jeopardize my relationship. Which is cool ;P but unfortunately it seems like there are other people doing it for me. Or as my boyfriend would say, there is a person doing it for me. Not that, I swear, it has any effect on me at all, but seriously woman.

And you, how could you say such things? How could you? Don't you know that...

...i love you.. I LOVE YOU HJ MUHD FIRDAUS HJ RAZALI X)

and my day was alright.. :) mwah.

almost a bummer, again.

2008-07-07T20:49:00.000+08:00

I don't know which is worst, PMS or the symptoms of PMS-ing you get from your pregnant sister. Haha kidding ;P you know I love you :)

Maigad I can't believe the 7 months have passed me by so fast it's finally coming to an end. No doubt I am going to miss that place but I am more than glad to leave haha.

Had a farewell dinner at the end of last month and each of us who were leaving were asked to make a speech. Last minute. So you could imagine how I was doing. Good thing I came last so at least I had a little time to come up with stuff to bull.

I wish I had added in more stuff than what I just said that night but heh sudah nervous nyamu, nada lagi tecakap apa-apa. But what I really wanted to say is that, I have learned so much that I am more than glad to share it here.

1. "Thats mean". Rupanya lurus that's mean aniii. Selama ani aku fikir aku lurus with That means rupanya, aku yang salah selama aniii..

2. it is always okay to stay on the phone as long as you want because it is not you who is paying the bill ;) plus, no one is going to fire you cause you've worked there for a good 13 years ;)

3. because you have been working there for quite a while, you are always, i repeat ALWAYS right.

hahaha. kidding. those are just what happen in my most everyday life for the past 7 months. If you were to ask me what I have learned, I am going to have a hard time answering that. But I made great friends. I met great people. I also met people who are very impatient.

If you were to ask me which part I liked the most, that has got to be, 'lunch duty' X) why? well because most of the time after that I see a hot guy ;) and it always makes my day.

I seriously cant wait for next Saturday to come. 12 more days :D and counting.

Then I can sleep late and not fall asleep anymore :S (so sorry :()

I think Neji is a very amazing boyfriend :) you are just crazily amazinggggggggggggg :) ily.

bored. hantap.

2008-06-24T10:41:00.000+08:00

I am at work at the moment playing an air guitar. Gila bored hantap ku ni.

OUT! hahaha.

23.o6.o8

2008-06-23T19:46:00.001+08:00

Highlight of the day. Congratulations to my sister who is finally graduating. Wanted to celebrate tonight but not everyone's at home tonight sooooo we'll do it some other night. Oh sama Daus says congrats too. Lupa ku gtau and I know you will be reading this.

I have nothing much to type. My day was just alright. I just found out that my boss has a facebook haha macam jobless saja :P but no actually. It actually shows he has a life other than work sajaaa, unlike some people who are really really boring yang taunya kan "gather everyone" to "have a good time" saja kerjanya.

Gila mental saja aku ani ehhh. batah hari khamis ani eh. i.am.hungry -_- -_-
I miss my boy.
Precious is singing some song inda ku faham I thought she was calling me. Hee.

AHHHH AND!!!! AND!!! AND!!!! 27 days and countinggggggg :D wassap!!

2008-06-20T22:50:00.000+08:00

Dearest "friend"

"it's not healthy to talk about people". you said it yourself. And what are you doing? So it's only okay for you to talk about other people and not any one else? And of all the people you could choose to talk about it, you chose her? Did you really think she wasn't gonna tell me? And so what is exactly the point you are trying to make? You know what is wrong with you? You think it is okay to just talk about anything you want without thinking about how others feel. Oh wait, of course. Silly me. Of course you do not think about how others will feel. That's the only thing that you are good at, right? It's all about your feelings, right? What others feel shouldn't matter, right? Then if so, next time when you have anything else to say, come lah tell me sendiri. Why tell it to a sister when you know she's gonna tell me at the end of the day jua?
One more thing, your jokes are no funny anymore. They were never funny to start with anyway. It is okay for me to talk about my sister but it's never okay for you to talk about my sister. I thought you were better than this.

Neji left today. I know, I know I am being over dramatic and i am over-reacting but aku rindu. I know it's only gonna be for 6 days but aku rindu. Awu, rupanya aku ani emotionally attached.

Awu aku emotionally attached. Kenapakan? Kan complain lagi? Complain tah. See this post wouldn't even exist if you hadn't said what you said. And don't give that the whole "kalaw putus it is not worth it cause you'll lose your friends by then". What kind of a friend are you talking about? The ones like you? Then it'll also show that you are not a worthy friend, no? And if you are so eager to know, no i do not see my boy everyday. He is not always with me. I am not always around him. I do not hog my boyfriend as much as I want to. It's not like I do not let him see any one of you. Adakan? Seriously, disappointed berabis ku kau ani.

on a happier note, it's 11:30p.m. right now and I JUST GOT A MESSAGE :D :D :D :D :D good night people.

6 days and counting.. missing you..

little ms cranky

2008-06-15T09:44:00.000+08:00

This post was supposed to be up since ages. First of all, it's never too late to greet a precious girl a very happy birthday (which was last Wednesday ;P). See the cranky face? That's because she wanted to order "yang macam hari atu" but kami sorang sorang inda tau wah apa yang "macam hari atu" ani. So yeah :)

Second of all, I am proud and so happy to announce that I HAVE ONLY ONE MONTH LEFT!!! AKU ISKI BERABIS!!! WEEEEEEE :D means I can sleep late!! :D

Third of all, I would like to welcome Amer Ilmiahaqim back to Brunei! Nada sigup lagi ni boss! Haha. Awu teh tarik! Nanti!

Forth of all, aku mau cakap sama Neji dulu so I'll stop here. Aku buang mental ku next time.

I dunno what to say. I am going to miss you. Tutup mata, buka mata. Hope you'll be back soon. Ily.

survivor :P

2008-06-09T21:32:00.000+08:00

Half of you might have wished that I wouldn't come back but I am so sorry to have burst your bubble, I am here :) Hee hee. kidding.

The trip turned out to be F U N WITH A CAPITAL F!!! Okay, exaggerating pulang ku sebenarnya but I seriously wouldn't mind going there and doing all the things I did all over again.....just not in the near future, please and thank you.
I really didn't think I could go through it. Apa lagi dengan hujannya yang berijap hantap. Well, basically I was freaking out pasal the water was coming into the tiny boat that was carrying what? 6 of us?? shapa inda takut? Well, aku takut lah :D
The hutan was quite alright cause no insects came near me (good insect repellent, good~) and and and highlight of that day was.. I climbed that canopy tower thing up to the highest..whatever you call it.. No shit, the view was seriously overwhelmingly nice with the embun and all and for the first time ever, I was actually higher than the birds flying and yes, I am counting flying on aeroplanes out.

All in all, it was great! Food was great! Boat rides were great. The people were great. Everything was great. Time balek sorang-sorang ampar pulang.. At least I was.. My legs were shaking like crazy but they're okay now.

And no Neji, my head is not still in Temburong.. It's here, back in Sand village..and Konoha.. :) I've got the sweetest Konoha boy on earth :)

Last but not least, I would like to thank my trustworthy Insect repellent spray for it was the main reason to why I actually had fun.. ...hahah.. Only thing that sucked there was I couldn't contact my Neji back in Konoha.. I did see Naruto jumping from tree to tree though with Sakura.. I guess they were on a mission.. Heheh wishful thinking..

That's it for now, out with a strong wind
Love,
Temari-xx hahaha :D

check!!

2008-06-06T21:54:00.000+08:00

entertainment.

extra shirt.

extra socks.

INSECT REPELLENT SPRAY!

snacks. Ah shit. Lupa ku.

money.

sense of adventure?

Does anyone know kedai yang jual "sense of adventure" kah? Cause I am needing it. I can't seem to find it anywhere. Ahh well. I hope I survive this one. Can't wait for it to come so I could get over with it as fast as possible.

Neji, I am not at all excited. Well, sikit lah but 99 percent of me wish I didn't have to go.

Whoever planned this, urgh! Macam iski tah ku jua cause this will be my first time but I hate things that crawl. How this?! Sighs~ I am actually doing this, huh? Here goes nothing.. Somebody stop me!!!

Salamat sa hapunan! :) mahal na mahal kita :)

I need to charge myself for tomorrow. Good night.

employed but jobless.

2008-06-05T21:25:00.000+08:00

This afternoon the company saw myself being really unproductive at work. Had to pull a receptionist a few times which made me think barangkali ahhhh I have got a hearing problem! Ok! Nauzubillah!! But seriously payah wah ku dengar even over the phone! SO either that or maybe some people just don't know how to talk nicely and like to drag their words. Walaupun time is precious~ mun cakap pun payah difaham sama jua you spend more time in repeating yourself. Boo!

So yeah, receptionist. Boring pulang just waiting for a call and the photocopy machine cant be brought in front but how can anyone complain when Mr hot boss is sitting there for your eyes to feast on?! Hmm? Hahahaha! Joking! Neji, seriously! I joke. Saja kacaw you. HEE HEE.

I seriously can't feed on Bandar food anymore. Banar! Habiskan duit saja. Muak ku sudah. I had some shitty kolomee for lunch tadi and the moment i put it in my mouth, urgh. Nyasalllllll. Sial. Muak hantap ku sudah!

Sometimes I don't see why I have a blog. I hardly post anything anyway and everytime, well, most of the time lah, I type something down, in the end it'll end up just as a draft saja jua, waiting to be re-read and deleted. =)

Hmm.. Mana si Tyx ah?!

I really wish there was something that I could do to make you feel better. I feel so useless. And imy. Have I told you you have the most sweetest smile ever? Oh, precious says hi too :)

jungle gym

2008-06-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

a perfect sunday :)

I swear I am not insane :)